Saturday, November 22, 2014

My first UW International Competition




I have come a long way when it comes to diving.  I have been curious about diving since I was in secondary school. I remembered watching it on TV and said to myself that one day I would want to experience the beauty of underwater world first hand.

Of course it was met with much scorn from my parents as they viewed the sports as a dangerous activity.

I finally made my break when I managed to convince my then-husband to dive. To cut story short- my first open water experience was unpleasant. I raptured my eardrum and I was banned from diving for good 6 months.

That does not stop me from pursuing my interest. I managed to get my license almost a year after the ear popping experience. I managed to get my open water license and I continued my Advance Open Water PADI certification soon after.

Although the interest is there, my skills are rather appalling. I was definitely not a water baby. I hyperventilated whenever I dived.  My buoyancy was poor.  I take rather really long for me to equalize my ears – partly the fear that it might pop again and partly, very bad technique. Despite all this, I continued diving.

I remembered cursing underwater photographer because they take way too long when they are photographing an object. I find it a chore waiting for them as I struggle to keep my buoyancy.

 The old adage of practice makes perfect rings some truth. With a lot of practice, I am more comfortable underwater. I am more calm, I can equalize easily and my body is much more streamline.  I was getting better at underwater marine life recognition. I am enjoying the diving much more as my skill improves.

Underwater photography is a natural progression once I am better at diving. I remembered a buddy borrowed the camera at Tenggol. I was so busy capturing the octopus that I made the whole team waited the whole time while I busy snapping the photos.  I must confess till today, I still make the whole team wait, just not as long:)

In 2012, I entered inaugural KR international underwater photography competition in Lembeh for fun. I was not expecting anything, as all of the participants are so competitive. They have the best equipment and they capture really beautiful shots of the macro life. I felt so small. I remembered not wanting to submit my entry but my buddy encouraged me to submit my photos.

Before the results were announced, they showed slideshow of the entry photos. I watched with admiration how beautiful the other entry shots. There is no way my photos comes near to those images. When they announced the winner, I was so shocked that I came in first for the compact camera category. Me? The winner of compact camera category? Yes, that's right. I came in first. http://trip.underwater.kr/20121217/shootout-2012-result/lembeh-contest-2012-23/

That experience encourages me to be a better UW photographer. I read more UW photography tips so I can capture more beautiful images. I put more effort in improving the camera composition so the pictures turn out beautifully.

I am saving my money so I can invest in better equipment. I have made good friends along the way. We have a long list of dive sites we want to do. With our improved equipment, it would be a waste if we did not dive around the world right?

# Balqesh Abdullah




Wednesday, November 12, 2014

Law of garbage truck


One day I hopped in a taxi and we took off for the airport. We were driving in the right lane when suddenly a black car jumped out of a parking space right in front of us.

My taxi driver slammed on his brakes, skidded and missed the other car by just inches!

The driver of the other car whipped his head around and started yelling at us. My taxi driver just smiled and waved ay the guy. He was really friendly.

So I asked “ Why did you just do that? This could almost ruin your car and sent us to the hospital!”

This is when my taxi driver taught me what I now call “Law of the Garbage Truck”

He explained that many people are like garbage trucks. They run around full of garbage, full of frustration, full of anger and full of disappointments. As and when their garbage piles up, they need a place to dump it and sometimes they will dump it on you.

Don't take it personally. Just smile, wave, wish them well and move on. Don't take their garbage and spread it to other people at work, at home or on the streets. The bottom line is that successful people do not let garbage trucks take over their day.

Life’s too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So love the people who treat you right. Pray for the ones who don't

Life is 10% what you make it AND 90% how you take it.

Have a garbage–free life

# Balqesh Abdullah



Tuesday, November 4, 2014

Solah




I chanced upon this article when I was browsing through the net. I must admit that I do falter when it comes to completing one of 5 principles of Islam. There would be times when I would fulfil my obligations, fully but there are days, I seemed to be lost in my pursuit of duniawi. 

Calamity strikes me late last year and I really prayed with all my heart. Allah is Most Forgiving and Most Merciful. He granted my prayers, although I have sinned again and again. Everything occurs according to preordainment and according to what has been decreed. And nothing happens in this Universe except through Allah's Knowledge, Permission and Divine Plan.  May Allah keep us in His providence, shower us with happiness and build a home for us in paradise. Ameen.


Are you a muslim who does not pray? Read on

You want to pray, but you just.. Can’t.

Perhaps you’ve always wanted to be one of those people who pray..  It seems so easy for some.  They just get up and do it.   Perhaps you were one of those people at one time, but now.. Not so much.

Something inside you is broken.  Scratch that.. It’s not exactly broken.. More like, it feels hollow inside.  Something is missing.  You feel nothing.. Numb.

So how do we get from this to praying?  The problem with most advice on salah is that it looks at things from a reactive point of view instead of a proactive point of view.  Not praying?  Well, just start.  Or better yet, take one salah at a time and keep building until you reach five.  Good advice, no?

No.  It doesn’t address what leads a person towards salah to begin with.

For some one who feels that hollowness inside, ‘just praying’ does nothing to stir the soul.  It doesn’t fill you up.  And, in fact, it can deplete you even further.  No, you need to start somewhere else.. You need to fill yourself up before your actions all follow suit.

We pray because of one simple reason:  We love Allah.  It’s the loving Allah part that makes it easy.  It’s the loving Allah part that makes you stand up when you’re exhausted.  Without that piece of the puzzle, nothing else will make salah stick.

When we look at the early Muslims, when Islam first came down, were there a lot of commandments?  No, there weren’t.  The early surahs are filled with lessons about Allah, about His Angels, His Messengers, His Books.  The rules and regulations came later, after the foundation was built.  So when we look at our own lives, why do we focus on the rules and regulations without paying attention to the foundation first?

If we want to be amongst those who pray.. Who pray regularly and easily.. Who jump up when the time for salah begins.. Then we need to begin first by building a love for Allah.  And in order to do this, we need to KNOW Him.

I always tell people who aren’t praying to begin first with dhikr.  Say SubhanAllah 100 times each day.  And as you do so, reflect on our own weaknesses, and the Greatness of Allah.  Reflect on how it is only with His Help that we are able to do anything.  When you do this, you’ll start a habit of THINKING about Allah.  You’re remembering Him.

And what happens when you remember Allah?  It starts to soften your dead heart.. You start to have more peace.. And most importantly, He remembers YOU.
Ibn al-Qayyim stated, “In the heart there is hardness which can only be softened by remembrance of Allah. So the slave must treat the hardness of his heart with the remembrance of Allah.”

“Unquestionably, by the remembrance of Allah hearts are assured.” (Qur’an, 13:28)
“I am to my servant as he expects of Me, I am with him when he remembers Me. If he remembers Me in his heart, I remember him to Myself, and if he remembers me in an assembly, I mention him in an assembly better than his…” (Bukhari and Muslim)
Be MINDFUL of this as you sit each day doing some dhikr.  Think to yourself, I am walking towards Allah..  

As the last hadith goes on to say..
“… When he comes closer to Me by a handspan, I come closer to him an arm’s length. If he draws closer to Me by an arm’s length, I draw closer by a distance of two outstretched arms nearer to him. If my servant comes to Me walking, I go to him running.” (Al-Bukhari)
You’re not praying (yet) but be mindful that you are getting closer.  Allow yourself to be in a state where you know you aren’t doing what you’re supposed to, but you’re taking steps to get there.  One of the tactics of Shaitan is that he leads you to believe that it’s all or nothing.  Either you’re praying, or you’re sinfully not.  So when we’re not, a dark cloud of guilt hovers over us, leaving us in darkness, unable to move forward.

Do you know the story of the man who killed 99 men?
Abu Sa`id Al-Khudri (May Allah be pleased with him) reported: Prophet of Allah (PBUH) said: “There was a man from among a nation before you who killed ninety-nine people and then made an inquiry about the most learned person on the earth. He was directed to a monk.
He came to him and told him that he had killed ninety-nine people and asked him if there was any chance for his repentance to be accepted. He replied in the negative and the man killed him also completing one hundred. He then asked about the most learned man in the earth. He was directed to a scholar. He told him that he had killed one hundred people and asked him if there was any chance for his repentance to be accepted. He replied in the affirmative and asked, `Who stands between you and repentance? Go to such and such land; there (you will find) people devoted to prayer and worship of Allah, join them in worship, and do not come back to your land because it is an evil place.’ So he went away and hardly had he covered half the distance when death overtook him; and there was a dispute between the angels of mercy and the angels of torment. The angels of mercy pleaded, ‘This man has come with a repenting heart to Allah,’ and the angels of punishment argued, ‘He never did a virtuous deed in his life.’ Then there appeared another angel in the form of a human being and the contending angels agreed to make him arbiter between them. He said, `Measure the distance between the two lands. He will be considered belonging to the land to which he is nearer.’ They measured and found him closer to the land (land of piety) where he intended to go, and so the angels of mercy collected his soul”.
[Al-Bukhari and Muslim].

 In another version: “He was found to be nearer to the locality of the pious by a cubit and was thus included among them”. Another version says: “Allah commanded (the land which he wanted to leave) to move away and commanded the other land (his destination) to draw nearer and then He said: “Now measure the distance between them.’ It was found that he was nearer to his goal by a hand’s span and was thus forgiven”. It is also narrated that he drew closer by a slight movement on his chest.

What is awesome about this story is that he hadn’t dramatically changed in terms of his actions.  He was just WALKING towards change.  And that was enough for Allah.  Allah is so patient that He watches us disobey Him.  And He waits.  Waiting for us to turn back to Him.  SubhanAllah!

So begin by walking towards Him.  And be mindful that when you do your dhikr, you are taking a step.

Another good step is to begin learning His Names.  When you KNOW Him, really know Him, you can’t help but attach your heart onto Him.  Knowing Allah’s Names will draw your heart closer to Him.  And as it does so, you will remember Him more.

Over time, your desire to please Him and turn back to Him will increase.. And this, my friends, is what will fill you up.  This is what will take away the hollowness.. THIS is what will make salah easy.  THIS is where the advice, ‘take it one salah at a time’ will be beneficial.  When you get to this place, it won’t be such a giant leap to contemplate standing up for one prayer.  And slowly, one will become two.. And so on..

But before you begin building your prayers, take the time to build your foundations, just as they early Muslims did.  Start with baby steps, like doing dhikr or learning His Names..

# Balqesh Abdullah