Marriage

You were born together and together you shall be forevermore
You shall be together when the white wings of death scatter your days
Ay, you shall be together even in the silent memory of God
But let there be spaces in your togetherness
And let the winds of the heavens dance between you

Love one another but make not a bond of love
Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls
Fill each other's cup but drink not from one cup
Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf
Sing and dance together and be joyous but let each one of you be alone
Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music

Give your hearts but not into each other's keeping
For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts
And stand together yet not too near together
For the pillars of the temple stand apart
And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other's shadow

Khalil Gibran

# Balqesh Abdullah 

Perfect

I read this beautiful words at my friend's FB page. It was beautifully written. It would be a shame such lovely words not shared with others.Enjoy:)

'You may not be her first, her last, or her only
She loved before
She may love again
But if she loves you now, what else matters?
She is not perfect
You aren't either
And the two of you may never be perfect together
But if she can make you laugh
Cause you to think twice
Admit to being human being
And making mistakes
Hold onto her
Give her the most you can

She may not be thinking about you every seconds of the day
But she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break- Her heart

So don't hurt her
Don't change her
Don't analyze
Don't expect more than she can give

Smile when she makes you happy
Let her know when she makes you mad
Miss her when she is not there'

Bob Marley

# Balqesh Abdullah

Faith

When things go wrong as they sometimes will
When the road you are trudging seems all uphill
When the funds are low and the debts are high
You want to smile but you have to sigh
When care is pressing you down
Rest if you must but dont you quit

Life is queer with its twist and turn
As every one of us sometimes learn
Many a failure turns about
He might have won had he stuck it out

Dont give up though the pace seems slow
You may succeed with another blow
Success is a failure turned inside out
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt

You can never tell how close you are
It may be near when it seems so far
Stick to the fight when you are the hardest hit
It is when things seems wrong that you must not quit

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# Balqesh Abdullah

new leaf

I have put my life on hold for the past few months for you. It is crystal clear that you are the same person when I left you. You are trying to mask all your faults by shifting the blame on me when you are the problem.Trying to jade me with all your tears and terror tactics again?I am a fool no more

# Balqesh Abdullah

Matrix of domination

My dearest E,

You have shown remarkable disrespect to me and my loved ones. It is breathtaking to me the level to which the disrespect has rises. You cannot beat me up more than I have already beaten up myself. I have been stripped bare and I will work with everything I have. If you cannot accept my talents and abilities, I do not need you and you dont deserve me. I am just tired. Tired of going through the cycles.Tired of the emotional pains you have inflicted on me. Tired of investing real commitments in this marriage.Tired of your constant taunt.Tired of you.

# Balqesh Abdullah

withered rose

"When love beckons to you, follow him
Though his ways are hard and steep
Though the sword hidden amongs his pinions may wound you
It kneads you until you are pliant"-Khalil Gibran

I have tried to make marriage vows mean what they say but I have failed. I can only summarize my whole feelings on my current state of marriage in this extract from a dear friend

"The strength of a lady is not by how hard she hits but in how tender she touches
Not in the weight she can lift but in the burden she can bear"

# Balqesh Abdullah

A loss cause

"God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay and who you refuse to let go"

I know life is no story book. Marriage is not for the faint of heart.After months of enduring much pain and heartache, I have come with peace with myself.No matter how hard I try to hold on to it, sometimes I just have to learn to let go and face the fact that while some good things never last, some dont even start.

# Balqesh Abdullah

Broken Doll

Here's a story a friend of mine once told me, in her own words:

One day my young daughter was late coming home from school. I was both annoyed and worried. When she came through the door, I demanded in my upset tone that she explain why she was late. She said, "Mommy, I was walking home with Julie and halfway home, Julie dropped her doll and it broke into lots of little pieces." "Oh, honey," I replied, "you were late because you helped Julie pick up pieces of her doll to put them back together." In her young and innocent voice, my daughter said, "No Mommy. I didn't know how to fix the doll. I just stayed to help Julie cry."

Dan Clark - extracted from 'Chicken Soup for the Mother's Soul'

I received this extract from an old friend of mine. It made me ponder. It made me realised that sometimes, its best to be there and cry with the other person rather than coming up for solutions for the other.

I remembered one particular night I was crying my heart out. I was a total nightmare.My daughter saw me.She came to me, hugged me and push my hair away from my face and wipe my tears away. She held me until I finish crying. I learned a valuable lesson from my daughter that night. For me, that was all I need. I dont need any solutions. I just need to know that someone I love dearly feels my pain.Period

# Balqesh Abdullah